Yesterday my food and lifestyle choices weren’t the best, ok lets be honest, they were the worst they have been this year!
I could have easily avoided consuming way too much food and sugar, but due to feeling incredibly tired, run down, bored and frustrated, I went with Plan B!
My Ego loves Plan B, it means it can eat whatever it wants ( usually highly processed food ), skip yoga, not exercise, avoid study, be super lazy and watch TV.
When I woke up yesterday morning, I knew something wasn’t right, my mood was flat, I felt like I had burnt the candle at both ends.
And it makes sense, looking at my calendar, for the last 6 nights, I’d been out every night socialising with different friends.
I had pushed myself both physically and mentally, eating rich food, consuming alcohol, not getting enough sleep, starting a new job and leaving no free time to be on my own to recharge, it was inevitable that my mood would suffer as a consequence!
Looking back on it, now in a positive head space, yesterday I deliberately ignored all the warning signs that lead me to revert back to old ways of destructive thinking and behaving.
Rather than meditate that morning to gain wisdom on how to be loving towards myself, I slept in.
Rather than cycle to work which would have given me a big fat injection of serotonin ( happy chemicals ) to improve my mood, I drove my car.
Rather than make a healthy lunch knowing that when I am tired I always crave sugar, so best to be prepared, I ended up buying processed food.
Rather than go to yoga knowing that it always helps me feel more grounded and balanced, I sat on the couch and watched TV.
Sometimes we have these ‘not so good’ days, and you know what, it’s ok, we’re not perfect! Having an awareness of the choices and actions you make is what stops the destructive behaviour in the future and allows positive change to take place.
Before being self aware, I would unconsciously self sabotage my health and wellbeing for days!
I would continue to act out in ways that weren’t loving towards my body and mind, constantly craving things externally for happiness, rather than loving who I was.
I simply just needed to stop, breathe and tune in, allowing my body to rest, allowing my mind to safely process whatever was going on!
Most of the time we know exactly what is good for us, yet sometimes we have days where we choose to go with Plan B instead. For me, I know that when I take on too much, my internal battery loses power very quickly, and its super important that I don’t ignore the flashing red light!
When my mind tells me to make good choices for my body, I need to listen and act accordingly, not ignore it, which is what I did today.
By choosing to do what is best, meditate, cycle to work, eat healthy, have time to myself, take a long hot bath, I’m choosing to love who i am.
When you choose to love who you are, you choose to love life! And when you choose to love life, the sugar cravings fade. x