Since returning from India, without any effort at all, I have attracted a number of men into my life who have shown romantic interest in me, some new, some from the past.
Due to my current unemployed ‘in between careers’ status, I actually had no desire or intention of dating anyone for awhile, but… in choosing to live life in flow, being 100% open to whatever comes my way, a few days ago I said yes to a date next week, out of curiosity to see where it goes.
The thing I find about dating is this, it can be rather shit if you let it be! Lets take a simple text message for an example.
This morning I had this desire to send a text to the guy I am seeing next week, just a simple text message wishing him a nice day. But rather than feeling good about my choice in doing so, trusting that my heart had good intentions and to just go with it, instead I quickly noticed the fear kick in.
It went a little something like this… Is it too early to send a text since we only spoke two days ago?
Am I breaking the rules by sending a text, should I instead let him chase me?
Would he freak out getting a text from me so early on a Sunday morning, thinking maybe I was obsessed with him?
A whole lot of bullshit fear came rushing in, taking over my beautiful idea of simply sending a loving thought to him.
This feeling of fear took over the feeling of love. I noticed it also brought up my past feelings of shame and regret from when I had put myself out there and then didn’t get a response, especially within a time frame I wanted ( which for me is always straight away! )
Having these old beliefs, ideas, expectations is what makes dating hard. But it shouldn’t be hard, you should be able to enjoy it!
So to enjoy dating, you need to let go of the fear and expectation and put the focus back on love, especially loving yourself.
Rather than freaking out and telling yourself you are not good enough because he hasn’t responded to your message, tell yourself that you are perfect, beautiful and the most lovable person on this planet!
Don’t waste a moment worrying about it, get on with living the amazing life you were put on this planet to live.
Your true being will attract the right soul for you, so it’s all good, there is honestly nothing to worry about as long as you stay 100% true to yourself!
When you let the fear and anxiety in, the love diminishes. Don’t let another person make you forget that your true being is pure love.
Be aware of the feelings and emotions arise in the body, sit with them, connect to the negative thoughts and observe how stupid they are!
Tell yourself that you are love, your true being is love and love attracts love. Take some time to meditate on this, connecting with the inner part of yourself that is wise, strong, beautiful and courageous.
Never feel shame around showing love to others, even if you don’t receive it back. Keep loving everything that you do, enjoy the feeling, enjoy the moments, life is to be enjoyed, enjoy life!
PS. He did send me a message back ( within an hour ) and it was all good 🙂